Inabandon ko na ang Xanga. Rason? I feel so confined here. Wala lang, nagpaparamdam lang ako sa mga Xangers(yak ang pangit) na ayos lang ako. May iba akong blogsite, tanungin niyo nalang ako kung saan, that is if you're interested. Kung mga mga constant blog visitors ako, namiss niyo ako no? Feeling.  Maraming nangyari. Maraming nag-iba. Pero ako parin si Kamille. Sige, folks, I guess this will be my last Xanga post. Ayokong gawing melancholic, eww. Sige na ulit, bye! Mag-aaral narin ako sa UP sa June. Hurra! Excited na ako. Pero sinastalk ko parin yung mga xanga nung mga crush ko, haha! Shout out to my peborit crush(who rarely updates his xanga): Alam mo bang cras kita? Nuon pa, man! Hanggang ngayon.(shifts to stalker mode) joke. haha. So long suckers!  

Last thing. Narinig ko yung Shiver(from Coldplay) ng Rivermaya. Ewwww! Coldplay parin. Chris Martin, tell me why you wrote the Scientist!

Last night was FUN. For the first time in 3-4 years, we spent New Year as a complete  family again, actually two more people were added to our clan  As early as 9, we all started our firecrackers and fireworks courtesy of our Bumbai friends. I wonder how dreary New Year will be without them, since they REALLY splurge on those things. There were couple of blunders, one is when this box of 16 shots fireworks went awry to different sides rather than upwards, whole lot more. We continued with our paputoks till 1 am, the finale being the best! Fun, kase we never really interacted with our friends this much before. This was the first time something like this happened, we all ate together pa. Amazing how two utterly different cultures still get along, eh. There were alot of food too, and beers and wine.. But, school will start again on the 4th, hassle ulit.

2K5 has been a different year. It has been great, and beautiful despite the circumstances. It has been a rational concoction of good and bad. The yin and the yang. I've gained and lost some important things. I've extracted alot of lessons, too. God has opened alot of opportunities for me and abundantly blessed me and  my family. Yet, I've had my own share of sadness and torment. But again, a new year has dawned, I am hopeful that this year will thrive to be different, again. It becomes officially okay to leave the past behind, and let go of the baggages. My life's about to change in a couple of months, we will graduate in three months time! But I'm more of excited than sad about it! I want this year to be full of adventures, the thrills and the rush! I want to explore more possibilities! Have a great year, friends!   

Oh, there's actually one thing I hate about the Christmas, getting fatter that is. Anyway, we had a simple feast; a seafood linguine, bagels, lychee salad, pot roast, ham, cordon bleu mac salad, chocolates and chips. I was munching really hard like there's no tomorrow. Ahh, life, it's so beautiful. I decided not to fuss myself with the things that bother me. I mean, I gotta cut loose from thinking, and searching for answers that maybe better if let untold. I've been torturing myself long enough, it has to end. It's a relief knowing that I could attain peace of mind because God assures me of it. I just have to hold on, and believe that one day, these answers will dawn at me. Okay, so going back to Christmas. Yesterday, I went to Town Center with my family. We attended mass, and it was rejuvenating. We were supposed to dine out, but ended up going home instead because we had lots of food at home.. They all got something except for me, but hey, I didn't act like all bratty and whiny, that's what happens when you've Christmas in your heart, eh? I remember having been bombarded with so much ranting and whining of people who haven't felt the yule spirit yet. So it lead me to muse over the inimitable things that make Christmas complete. Given that this is the even to celebrate God's becoming a man, it's not the fancy houses screaming with lights, nor the Christmas songs running all day on the radio that could jog our hearts with the spirit. People search far and deep, overlooking that it's enjoying life's simplest pleasures that actually make it the most cherished event, sharing without qualms,selfless giving, charity, forgiving and forgetting what lay behind.

May Christmas reign in our hearts for the rest of our lives!   

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little musing.

I've been itching to post another entry here. I haven't updated for so long, I gotta catch up. (Like as if anyone really cares about this whole Xanga thing). Why am I bothering to post a public entry anyway? Writing has always consoled me, in an odd kind of way. There's something about expressing my thoughts that's so comforting. It's like having someone listening over my mundane thoughts. I thought of abandoning the whole blogging mania, and restore the old-fashioned way yet the quality-driven way.. JOURNAL that is. I have always been fascinated with journals. Going through my old journals vividly hark me back to my childhood's delusion, the pathetic yet carefree girl that I was. I've changed, a huge deal, but there are a couple of things I can't seem to leave behind. A little reminiscing over here huh. Anyway, going back, I have a new journal. It's the Levi's notebook I got for free from buying a pair of jeans. I'm so thrilled to write my first entry! Yeeeeaaahhhh! 

a little distraction.

hole yourself up in your room with orange county and bag of popcorns

For the past days, weeks I suppose, I couldn't sort my thoughts out.  Like as if my mind is in a tousled knot, and all this muddle aggravates every single day I shack myself up in my room. I'm literally offtrack right now. I've been idle for almost four days now! I've been downloading alot of songs lately, some Jill Scott's, India Arie's and the Ultraelectromagneticjam Eheads remakes, and oh, Disney soundtracks! Oh my, last Monday, I had a blast singing with Pepe and other friends at the karaoke at Nikki's crib. We practically sang our lungs out, from classic Beatles to Disney soundtracks.. and all that. I was really scared to hell when my jaw started locking, quasi-lock jaw. Oh, I actually did something fun this week. Just yesterday, I started re-running THE OC seasons 1 and 2 marathon. How monotonous could my supposedly productive vacay get? Oddly, there's something about The OC that's soothes me, it's so addicting I couldn't lay my eyes off my computer monitor. I'm fallinf more in love with Adam Brody, and actually (just) starting to like benjamin mckenzie. MY life, for four days, have been revolving around FOOD, THE OC, some movies and sleep. Darn it! Just now, I'm eating a bag of popcorn alone. How worse can I get? Also today, I had manicure and pedicure.I got my nails painted dark plum, no actually it's like dark violet that turns kind of red. We're supposed to get my room repainted, but we postponed it because we don't want our house smelling like paint on a Christmas eve.

However dreary the past days may seem, some good things are happening around the family. I don't know, it's like we're having improved relationships. We don't really get all tacky and mushy, but we're practically more comfortable around each other. (or am I the only one who feel that way?) My sister just got us ALL our Christmas gifts. How sweet of her, disposing all of her Christmas pay (or bonus..whatever!) for us! I'm really thrilled for New Year, more than Christmas. Christmas'll be fun, I'm certain of that, but New Year, will positively be a blast! My brother, Ching and Enzo are coming over on the 29th! I miss my nephew, I can't wait to play with him! His chuckles and little stunts bring so much joy in this house, especially my parents(proud grandparents eh?) I wish they would be able to stay longer though. What's more fun is that my dad bought some cool fireworks! Eversince a Roman Candle backfired and blistered my palm 7 years ago, we NEVER bought any fireworks nor firecrackers. But he came home one night with these dragon bla bla fireworks. So I'm really keyed up for New Year!

Why do all my posts get so random? Gah! Just bear with me.

Merry Christmas! Savor the crisp December air!

So much has happened, change of heart, I-net connection in my room, a daring head-on proclamation of.. erm,(well, at least it seemed to me as), a miracle(reclaiming a lost cellphone, mann, you just know when God answers a prayer!) and rejuvenating of faith.

After a lot of recurring snoozes, I opted not to go to school. Optimistic from yesterday's thirst-quenching youth jam, I felt a sudden pang of nostalgia when I woke up.. Bad vibes, haha, intuition eh? Not! I was just so darn sleepy! Just like yesterday, when I literally slept on class hours. I woke up again at about 9 am, scampered right on the computer. I remembered having a deadline of a feature editorial today, and a ,supposedly, voluntary overtime for the Highlights! How nice of you, Kams, holing yourelf up in your room, watching DVD's, blogging, netsurfing! A while ago, I watched Flightplan, a Jodie Foster film. It wasn't the best, not exactly so-so, borderline lang. Maybe it just wasn't my type-o film. It was okay, nonetheless.

Since I haven't updated for quite a while now, let me kuwento. =)

>As I've said, I've done a <somewhat> a daring head-on proclamation of fondness. Not that I haven't done anything of this sort, but this apparently was something utterly different, yet so blunt. Gah!!!! Why am I giving so much fuss over this? It's nothing serious, well at least now..

>You just know when God maneuvers things, it just go off so perfectly . A week after I lost my cellphone, a tenant in our apartment(who happens to own a cellphone service shop beside Caltex) notified us about a guy named B***y who surrendered an exactly same unit as mine for a security code nullification. So I  scurried right on the cellphone, and entered the code. Boy, was it accepted! Luckily, it's the same simcard, but it's cut in half.  I'm still in awe, ang galing talaga e..

> I gotta reveal a secret. I'm never a bad critic, tactless, nor judgemental by nature(that is if witty remarks don't count). But admittedly, the past days I've been pouring scorn(just on my mind, though.hehe)  on some people, and I mean really nit-picking people as if not guilty of anything faulty. Not that I  go about two-faced, and hypocritical about what I feel. Never told anyone, but I'm sorry nonetheless. >;p

I gotta go now, I'm having darn painful eye strains again.